GOD knows exactly what we need before we even know we need it. I guess this was my lesson today, not that I don’t know that, but maybe GOD wanted to reinforce it.
You know what??? Going through withdrawal from a prescription medication is not fun. I pray that you never have to experience it. About a month ago, my pain specialist decided that it was time for me to get off the prescription I have been taking for almost two years so that we can see what pain levels I am really having. I have also gotten a second opinion from a doctor who agreed that I need to try something new. So, I have been weaning off the meds for just about a month. I never imagined that I would go through withdrawal even if I weaned off the meds.
Insomnia has been going on about 2 weeks, but I didn’t connect it to weaning off the medicine. I would be exhausted until I was ready to get into bed and then suddenly be wide awake for several hours or wake several times in the night. The first night that I didn’t take any meds, the headache started right before bed. Then about two hours after I finally got to sleep, I woke up with extreme body pains. The following two days, I had hot flashes during the day + progressively worse night headaches and body aches. Yesterday was the worst. About noon I started having nausea. It stopped for a bit but then came on worse with a headache. Then the body aches too. It feels like a flu, but not! Ugh!
I was so tired just wanted to become horizontal with my eyes closed but I needed to be at class since it is moving quickly – I am taking two summer classes. Both classes are six weeks long instead of the regular twelve weeks, so everything is moving very fast! I need to make a budget on Excel that is formula driven and for the life of me, I am not able to get my brain to bring the data and the budget together!!!
For two months, I had an internship accounting position. The owner liked me a lot; on three different occasions told me that he trusted me with the accounting of his multi-million dollar corporation and wanted me to come on board full-time. I thanked him for his offer but told him that I have contracted through Nova Job Center to receive a grant for an Accounting Certificate which I would not be able to continue if I took the full-time job. After the third time, I was laid-off for not accepting a full-time position.
I was laid-off several days after I started weaning off the medicines and just a few days before Summer classes started. It has been exactly what I needed because of the higher pains and faster pace classes. And especially now that I am having withdrawal symptoms.
Last night I stopped at Trader Joe’s for some Ginger ale. They didn’t have the kind I normally get when I have a belly ache. So I got some of their nonalcoholic Ginger beer. I also noticed that they now carry melatonin, so I grabbed some of it to see if it will help with the insomnia. Then as I was standing in line I noticed the new rice cracker mix that they have. It’s been years since I have had it and it was going to be a splurge, but I just couldn’t help it. So I bought them thinking I would enjoy them after I was feeling better.
The Ginger beer was not very good warm. It has lemon and lime juice and it just made me all the more sick. But the melatonin worked – at least I got to sleep sooner than I have in weeks and mostly stayed asleep. I thought, GOD has provided these at just the right time because I am sure they are a new item!
This morning I woke with a headache, milder body aches and nausea. I didn’t want to eat anything. Not sure why I opened the rice crackers, but I did! You would never guess, the seaweed wrapped rice crackers, the flower shaped rice crackers and the log shaped rice crackers were just what my body needed! Weird I tell you. But the mixture between the rice being easy on the stomach, the sea salt adding some electrolytes and not sure what vinegar does, but my stomach settled down for a little while. I felt like GOD had provided them at just the right time – before I thought I would be eating them!
This afternoon I was dragging my feet to start reading the next chapter for Managerial Accounting and my belly was bothering me again. I decided to give the Ginger beer a second chance since it was cold. Yep, you guessed it (if you did that is): the Ginger beer was exactly what I needed. It’s not the typical very ginger-y ginger ale that I get. It is milder. Sort of a 7-up meet Ginger ale taste. Yep, it seemed like GOD provided for me before I knew that I needed it – even though I thought I needed the other Ginger ale.
And tonight when I finally started reading the chapter for Managerial Accounting. Ha Ha Ha…I have to laugh…Guess what??? It’s about budgeting! LOL! Even in my struggling to finish my project, GOD has provided me with what I needed…a lesson on budgets!
I pray that 1) you will never have to go through withdrawal from prescription medication and 2) I pray that GOD will reveal to you in such a way that you can comprehend how He is providing for you – for the just in time as well as the before you need it. Please write to me and tell me what He shows you.
Oh, by the way, no I am still not working. I know GOD is providing for me. That will be a story for another time.
Until then, may GOD bless you and keep you wrapped in His loving arms!